2009-04-12

Major Updates

Looks like it has been a while since I last posted. I've mostly disconnected from my usual routine, but think I have a very good excuse for once. Normally, in the same time frame (about a month and a half) I would have also probably rebuilt the toolchain on Icadyptes twice, hoping for fixes and improvements resulting in smaller and faster binaries (maybe a little compulsive on that front :-/ ). I would have woken up each day pondering what to fix or update or change next. Icadyptes would probably already be on Linux 2.6.29 and xorg-server 1.6.0, so you could have had some fun with Kernel Mode Setting on Intel graphics already (of course, there are more distributions than just Icadyptes that you could try). My friends on Freenode would be more up to date on my life and Icadyptes' progress, and you could have a couple more rants on this blog to read. My life before my recent excuse was dull and boring with occasional excitement (like getting the 486 on Digg). I lived mostly for Icadyptes more than anything else; Icadyptes came before my own life. I woke up thinking of what to change next, although school got in the way a bit. So what happened?

I met someone. Not just any someone, but the most amazing person ever. You may think I'm wrong, but I'm convinced in rationality, emotion, and experience. I'm convinced enough that my normally open mind doesn't consider it being possible that she isn't the most amazing person ever. This special someone just happens to not be bothered by my madness of thoughts, lair of computers, strange diet (I'm off of the raw foods diet by the way, but more on that later), often controversial beliefs, and my imperfect smile.

My "Requirements" post is so dated and convoluted now (as you can tell, I'm not even bothering to link to it from here). Yes, I think she fulfills the two things I wrote about, but I hardly contemplate them now. My every (almost always passive) venture to find "the one" was flawed. I didn't know that we would find each other, and that things would work perfectly without being artificially tested. I had no idea that something so perfect could be made out of two imperfect people (me being more imperfect than her), and that she could seem this perfect to me.

My thoughts in regards to who she might be were so far off. No, she actually didn't send me a PGP encrypted message through her own SMTP servers (whose DNS had v6 glue) on IPv6. We didn't meet in Freenode or at a hacker convention. Instead, she's even better. She doesn't know how many bits are in an IPv4 or IPv6 address. Instead, she has about average computing literacy and runs a Windows box. PGP encrypted and/or signed messages mean almost nothing to me now (I still haven't gotten one yet, by the way), and I don't care if I have to talk to her on IPv4 through a dozen NATs. As long as she can somehow read my textual thoughts, I'm okay. All in all, I'm now convinced that imagining the one who you're meant to be with is stupid. She is more amazing, more unique, more genuine, more fascinating, more charming, more adventurous, more teachable, more intriguing, and far beyond what my imagination could ever conjure up. By the way, I'm now convinced that being in person beats textual communication any day.

I guess at this point I should say that her name is Heather. Omitting a lot of details, we met on Facebook, after I tried adding her as a friend thinking she was someone else. Officially, as her boyfriend I've been the luckiest guy in the world for a week and am *very* happy. One day I'll write more about us and probably make it the content of several chapters in a book (how we met is actually quite interesting).

Since meeting her I lost my passion for working on Icadyptes and fixing computing. Learning assembler or talking to the most amazing person ever is a no-brainer. She broke me yet fixed me at the same time. I finally feel content for once, and am so happy and thankful to know her. So what does this mean for Icadyptes?

While my focus has shifted, computing is still a mess. Working on Icadyptes often feels like a lot of useless little things that don't ever make a difference. This world has hundreds of other things in need of fixing, but fixing the rest of them would be easier if computing was in some state of reasonability. I've talked to Heather about this and she wants me to go ahead with it (probably more than I do). My life would feel complete if I could stare into her eyes for an eternity, but somehow I know that my purpose is something else. I would rather not spend a moment without Heather, but the real world is larger than just us. Heather will be the primary focus in my life, but I'm going to give my best shot at doing as much as I can to fix computing. Icadyptes will be a hobby (and eventually hopefully a good source of income), not my life. But who knows, Heather is smart and adventurous enough that if I could teach her, we could work on Icadyptes together :-).

I wish I could do Heather justice in my description of her, but I've finally found someone that breaks the boundaries of words. "Amazing" is a reasonable word, but it's woefully inadequate. If you could see her smile and the depth of her eyes beyond a limit of pixels, you might see a fraction of how amazing she is. On a more practical note, she is an amazing artist and has some *very* nice drawings. I think our most common unique interest is duct tape. I've duct taped a laptop, made duct tape guitar straps, a duct tape and paper shield (don't ask), and a few other things. Heather makes some of the nicest (definitely most special) duct tape wallets ever and has quite the collection of colored duct tape. Heather is the only person or thing I know of that can actually blank my mind. My mind otherwise seems to never shut off from its insanity of (almost) madness related to random facts and computing, or pondering theories. My brain finally has an on/off switch, it's Heather.

On a note of lesser significance, the Celica isn't happy (still driving though), I turned 17, and finally wrapped up my origins research (more on that later).



^ I don't think I look that great in the picture, but the person to the left looks quite pretty :-).

PS: Expect some KMS fun in Icadyptes soon :-).

2009-02-26

Questioning The Status Quo: Methodology And Reasoning For Origins Research

I felt that I should do one last post before wrapping up my origins research. I haven't discussed much about potential methodology for providing proof of Creation or Evolution beyond a reasonable doubt (100% proofs on these topics are not possible). While someone could probably make a reasonable decision based on a gut feeling of the summation of evidence after enough research, it wouldn't hurt to have a realistic methodology established. I don't believe that my terminology is spot-on, but it should suffice. Creation vs. Evolution isn't the most ideal phraseology as Evolution is simply the most accepted Atheistic theory. Evolution is also a broad term, and can apply to culture, science, and of course, the theory of biological Evolution. However, I will use the old terminology as I'm (unfortunately) more used to it, and potential readers probably are too. Please don't hesitate to write a comment in reply to this post if you wish to correct me or what not.

We have two theories under scrutiny here, and they could both use a proper definition. Theistic Evolution is of a slightly different nature, but I will cover it briefly.

Creationism is the belief that life and the universe as we know it were created by a god. There are a few kinds of Creationism, Young Earth Creationism and Old Earth Creationism are the two prominent theories. Of course, the core Creationistic theory stays the same. Old Earth Creationism is quite close to Theistic Evolution, so for the purposes of this text, Creationism will refer to Young Earth Creationism (YEC, for short). Creation does not need to be bound to religion as it often is. Debating that Creation is possible does not have to carry any sort of moral code or religion with it. The theory merely regards whether or not we were created by a god, not how that god wants us to serve him. It is likely that if we were created by a god, he wrote a text or embeded in our DNA some set of guidelines, and/or influenced history in some way. Perhaps he only left us with a few easter eggs to know who he is, but simply wants us to go on with our daily lives. By definition, a god should be an infinite, super natural being that needs nothing. Thus, it would seem unlikely that he would create us merely for the sake of watching us in some convoluted Sims-like game. The possibility exists that he created us to share something with us, but I won't go into much detail on that. The main point I wish to stress is that Creation alone does not imply religion; considering the existance of a god does not make you a religionist (by this I mean anyone who follows a religion, including those who call it a relationship) in any way.

Evolutionism is the belief that we came to be solely by natural causes. Current theory is that the Big Bang and billions of years were sufficient. If we were not created with a purpose by a god, some interesting potential life purposes through Evolution theory can be gathered, along with those like Contact purposes in regards to finding extra-terrestrial life (if exists, of course). Some religionists think that since Evolution is secular, the theory and those who follow it must be immoral. Like how giving the possibility of a god fair consideration does not make you a religionist, morals are irrespective of considering a theory. I know many atheists who are far more moral than Christians, but I've also seen some of the opposite, too. My own experience says that just because someone follows a religion or believes in Evolution does not say a thing about their moral code. Statistically, religion Xists may be more moral than religion Yists, but there is no conclusive evidence to support that atheists are simply immoral. Thus, Evolutionism proposes that we were created solely by natural causes with nothing supernatural involved.

Before going further, I thought I should address something. Creation/Evolution is often an emotion-filled debate. Creation is often championed solely because it backs religion, so it often turns into a Theistic vs Atheistic debate. Most reading this text have probably been hurt by religion, or more rather its misuse in the past. Throughout history, billions have died all because of religious matters and the thought that those with differing beliefs should be exterminated. People also have the tendency to form religions when they have no scientific understanding of something, instead of accepting uncertainty as a normal part of life. Some atheists probably hold on to their belief partially due to religion's ugly history (as I said earlier, Creation does not mandate religion, but Evolution insures there is no possibility of a true religion). Likewise, some religionists have been hurt by atheists, but I think overall the atheists are much more owed an apology than the religionists. However, I have seen evidence of religion being beneficial, psychosomatic or not. If Creation and thus religion is disproven, some form of secular humanism is probably more ideal, but in general I would have to say that (in my opinion), religion as a whole has done more harm than good. If there is a true religion out there, it has presumably been quite beneficial to humanity when treated properly. Since a true religion implies that a god exists, a religion that the god would produce to find him would simply be more ideal than not. It could have much advice and give a good definition as to the meaning of life, so if Creation is true, it would be worth looking into if a religion, text, or something else has sufficient backing to be considered written or inspired by god.

Creation nor Evolution (more correctly, atheism) cannot be disproven in full. No one was there to see the creation of the universe, but we can look at the geologic table, biology, astronomy, chemistry, and countless other areas to compile a reasonable certainty based on the current evidence. I won't try countering some of the overly-simple two sentence "disproofs" of Creation or Evolution, but I would recommend giving those a second look if you can't consider the alternative theory because of it. However, I will state one example of why the possibility of a god existing must be considered to be scientific. Imagine if you coded a self-conscious, adaptive artificial intelligence and placed it in a virtual reality. You made the virtual reality exotic and expansive, and provided historical geologic evidence suggesting a sudden creation. You also implanted Pi number sequences throughout, but considered Fibonacci. The artificial beings are then let loose to decide for themselves what to do in life and whether or not they think you (the god coder) exist. Ultimately, we could be in the same predicament. If we were created by a god we are essentially in a matrix, though possibly not one of binary, but of real organic compounds and minerals. The artificial beings could ignore the prospect altogether, make arguments such as that god couldn't exist because he had to be created initially, or hopefully make a genuine effort to search. Perhaps you made the virtual reality so that it looked as though it had not been touched by a god, and everything had evolved after a big bang and abiogenesis. In which case it would be your fault if the residents didn't believe you existed.

Occam's razor is a very useful principle in researching origins. Given two options otherwise equal, the simpler one is more likely true. Suppose I drove to your house and had to make a final right turn. You didn't see me driving, but knew when I left and when I arrived. Using a simple calculation, you determine that under normal speeds I would have had to make the last right turn instead of doing three left turns. Your friend says that I drive fast and insists that I must have missed the turn and taken three left turns at four times the legal speed limit (in order for the leaving and arrival times to add up). The right turn is easy to notice, so I probably wouldn't had any problems finding it. Is it logical to think that I made three left turns when I could have comfortably made one right turn and not had to speed excessively? Ultimately, people may be able to "prove" evolution by millions of calculations, chance mineral deposits, *really* good luck, and billions of years, but a god snapping his fingers is a much simpler solution. On the other hand, if we have clear astronomical evidence of a big bang, excellent evolutionary transitional fossils, proven methods of forming DNA through inorganic chemical reactions, and no seemingly valid religious texts given by a god, invoking that a god started the process which could have realistically occurred naturally is more complex and thus less likely.

All in all, a reasonable methodology for making a conclusion regarding origins isn't terribly hard given Occam's razor, reliable sources of information, and sufficient reasoning. In the end, while direct evidence of the processes required for both theories is important, it really comes down to which is simpler and more realistic. There are more atheistic theories than just Evolution, but Evolution is the most championed and thought-out theory, so it would probably be quite sufficient to stick with it. Theistic Evolution is less likely than atheistic Evolution when given Occam's Razor, unless a god appears to have left his mark in some way.

One can start with Evolution and logically follow the path it would make. We should see transitional forms, evidence of an *ancient* earth, and be able to form left handed amino acids in test tubes simulating a reasonable primitive sea/muck environment. Dating methods can also be used to check evidence, but before saying that Evolution must be true because the BBC says that a fossil was dated at 7 million years old, one should check what methods were used and how valid they are. Using Wikipedia (Evolution-biased) and CreationWiki (Creation-biased), along with other sources should be sufficient. Carbon-14 is a famous technique, but does have some criticisms (CreationWiki article; Wikipedia article). Evolutionists have a tendency to purport supposed natural occurrences of Evolution that only evidence natural selection, which is also agreed on by Creation theory. Creationists have a tendency to purport natural phenomena that is merely impressive, but would be equally probable under the Evolution model, as evidence for a god. It helps having as neutral sources as possible, but know your source's bias when you can. Even biased information can be useful, you just need more of it as well as the other side's opinion.

Providing adequate information for Creation is a slightly different as it can be improperly invoked in almost any situation of evidence (Theistic Evolution, for example (not saying that it is necessarily improper in that case though)). However, it does have a few possible direct evidences that should not be found in Evolution. While proving that Evolution is nearly impossible would be a large evidence for Creation, if life demonstrates traits that would not be evolved it has some direct evidence. Easter eggs (like those in software) and mathematical patterns that would not likely be randomly evolved are potential evidences for Creation. Evolution theory currently requires a huge time scale; if it could be shown that the earth is much younger than what is required, Creation has a stronger stance. Inability for abiogenesis to occur would also be a critical stumbling block for Evolution.

While I won't go into much detail on this, if Creation is true, the possibility that God left a religious text exists. The text first has to be tested in regards to authenticity. It must be asked how old the text is, how many copies exist, (if applicable) how long since the events occurred that it was written, and of course the consistency between copies. It should also demonstrate logic beyond the known level of the culture at the time, show scientific understanding beyond its time, have geological backing for recorded historical events, and have its existence or recorded events in other texts of the time. A genuine, god-inspired/written religious text might not meet all of those, but it should have to overcome a heavy standard. Interpreting and translating it is a whole other topic in itself.

When all is said and done, one theory should have considerably more evidence than the other. There may be a few minor issues that may simply be human error in perception; they should be counted but not distort the overall picture. If Occam's theory still works on your conclusion, you are probably on the right track :-). Just stay open to possibilities and have an open mind, but don't stay on edge over minor things. There is a time to keep researching and a time to wrap it all up and just go with your conclusion.

In summary, give both theories a fair chance and think twice before accepting new information as true. The evidence doesn't lie and the mind works incredibly well; use both to the best of your ability.

Cheers, and thanks for reading :-).

2009-02-23

Stereotypical Female Pseudo-Shopping Phenomena

I recently had a interesting enlightenment. Most of you are familiar with the stereotype that women like to shop excessively. Statistically, the stereotype does seem to hold up. What I didn't know, was that they usually don't do normal shopping. I had been exposed to a form of pseudo-shopping before (I forget when), and again recently. This pseudo-shopping involves going through various stores and fiddling with all sorts of items you would never buy. Occasionally, an item is bought, but it seems to be more of a hobby than anything else. While a male would usually (statistically) bond with his peers by shooting at them in video games, females (again, statistically) use the time to bond in a real-world environment and probably get to know their peers considerably better. This acts as a form of exercise, a social bonding time, and is a way to catch up on the latest products being released (which probably isn't too crucial).

It turns out that this stereotypical female pseudo-shopping phenomena has a name. It is called window shopping. Many thanks to the member of the family that stayed with us several weeks back who told me; I now know that there are two types of shopping in this world.

I also realized that males sometimes unwittingly engage in window shopping. Have you ever created a wishlist for a computer build that you don't have the money to buy on Newegg? Turns out, that it is very much like window shopping. I guess you could reformat the stereotype into "People like to go window shopping", but then it sounds like they want to shop for windows. "People like to go pseudo-shopping" gives more explanation but is terribly dull.

Anyways, I hope this helps the few people like me in the world who didn't know what this shopping phenomena was. It turns out that it really isn't that bad, you probably engage in it yourself. If nothing else, it is a good opportunity to get some walking in.

Requirements

I felt that I should write this post before finishing my quest on origins. It is of a different nature than most of my other current posts, but as you can tell, I felt that I should write it.

Amongst my normal postings consisting of geekery, random pictures, general rants, and Creation/Evolution questions, this is somewhat in its own category. This post is about the opposite sex, but before combing the lackluster title and this sentence into thinking that I should post this under Craiglist's personals section, please give me a chance to explain.

Between getting a 486 on Digg, owning 12 computers (11 of them in my room, 7 on 24/7), being on the USMA mailing list, using ISO 8601 date formatting, and other geekery, you may think that worrying about the subject at all is a waste of time for me. While I do have some prospect of life outside of geekery (hiking, volleyball, cooking, driving, music, writing), the scale does tend to tip a little more to one side rather than balance out. Even so, I do believe that there is someone out there for me (and vice versa). I won't write out my own "feature table" (or whatever it is best called), as it isn't really what this post is meant for; one can find out a lot about me by reading this blog and checking my website. While this may sound counter productive toward my "chances", I intend to establish a few guideline requirements before entering into a relationship beyond friendship. It may sound selfish, but it is mostly to keep myself from doing anything stupid relationship-wise. Ideally, I would like to have one serious relationship for life. Not sure if things will end up that way, but I hope it will.

While an obvious requirement would be that I would have to like the other person (and likewise), I will list the few possibly unassumed requirements I have. Given an adequate reason/argument, I would be willing to modify them. I'm half-tempted to throw something geeky into the list, but I think I know better. The person I'm meant for will simply be awesome, though she may not think so. I won't state my unrefined theories on why, but people are more than individual skills. Sure, it would be really cool if she sent me emails encrypted with my PGP key (I haven't been sent a PGP-encrypted email by anyone other than myself yet), played an instrument, or knew how to/wanted to learn how to drive stick, but in summation of who she is, none of those make any difference to the big picture (if that makes sense). Anyways, onto the list.

1. Must be open-minded. I can't recall doing a blog post on open-mindedness, but the concept is simple enough. Being open-minded doesn't mean that you accept everything you hear or that it should be easy to consider all possibilities; it means that you are merely open to the idea of changing your current stance given adequate information to the contrary. Depending on the nature/severity of the topic and strength of the other's argument, I would recommend researching your previous stance to see if the other argument may be invalid or inadequate. Some fear being open-minded because they feel that they may fall away from their religion or the truth. This argument has some validity if you just happened to be born to parents who taught you nothing but the perfect truth. Being open-minded gives you a chance to explore the possibilities and find the genuine truth to the best of your ability. I contend that it is better to fall away from the real truth by searching for it, than blindly accept it out of fear. Some people equate open-mindedness with not having an opinion. While I had never thought of this before and the true pinnacle of open-mindedness may be mindless opinionless-ness, by all means have opinions. I tend to assign strength ratings to my opinions, letting those that are well researched be stronger and those that are unresearched have less strength. Ultimately, they are all changeable. Some just require more convincing and time than others.

2. Must want the truth above any preconceptions. This is kind of a reiteration of being open-minded, but I felt it deserved its own paragraph. I don't mean that you should continually question insignificant things, but that you should want the truth on origins and purpose more than any current belief of religion or atheism. I'm fine with her following a religion or atheism, just as long as she is open-minded on the matter and wants genuine truth. If in finding the truth she finds that Creation is the most evidenced for (personal experience counts to an extent, but it should be scientifically backed), then I ask that she prioritize/love God more than me. Seeing as (assuming it exists) God would have ultimately created both of us, the creator is more important than what it produces. I don't mind if she is atheistic or not, just as long as she is willing to consider the possibility of a god or the possibility of god not existing. Before getting too far in the relationship I would like us to both to end up with the same conclusion.

Well, looks like the list isn't too long. I think there are a few additional unwritten things, but I didn't want this to be terribly long. Again, given an adequate argument I am willing to change these, but I think they are pretty reasonable. Arguing against open-mindedness would be rather difficult though, as it requires the other person already has the same beliefs or is adequately open-minded (which is what would be argued against). I guess I should add that at the time of this writing I'm single.

Thanks for reading :-).

2009-02-20

Updates

Seeing as my last post was twelve days ago, I guess I'm not doing too badly. I'll hopefully get around to a second blog post today as well.

I wanted to write about a couple things before writing a post on another topic. The first is that I'm back in the 21st century. I still drive a car that is six years older than me (and is a manual, which is unfortunately becoming culturally dated in the US), and thanks to a keyboard swap, am now typing on my 1988-12-06 IBM Model M keyboard. But seeing as I'm using a post millennium LCD screen and mouse (even the whole x86 box is post 2000), *and* got back on Facebook, I think I've barely bridged the gap. Some of you may be familiar with my Facebook journey over a year ago, and its end which was still over a year ago. I had heard that Facebook was finally allowing homeschoolers, so I emailed support asking if they could reactivate my account. I can't always be found by searching for "Teran McKinney", so you can use my email sega01.-at-.go-beyond-.-org if you wish to find me. For those of you who read the old posts, I'm sorry for the text quality. My old posts seem lacking, but one day I'll probably look back at these and find them just as poor. I guess it is all about perspective; I remember reading blog posts a few years back and wanting to learn how to write with a reasonable degree of witt and charm (good content helps. too). Now I like think that I usually write in a way that at least keeps readers from excessive agony or boredom. I do struggle with some more in depth topics like those in my 'My quest for the truth' post, but generally consider myself a good writer.

Another thing I wanted to bring up is that I've been going too slowly in my quest for the truth. I'm not reading enough on the topic each day, and only touch it once every few. The mom of the family that stayed with us (me and my parents) a couple weeks ago asked me if I had a sell-by date. At first glance that may sound like the day I hope to expire, but the context was that of running with my gut feeling and going with where the evidence points to in regards to origins/religion. My dad says that he follows a 40% standard for knowing 40% of the facts and variables in a situation before he makes a decision. He claims that a 40% decision is usually right 99% of the time, though I would personally think that 90-96% is more accurate (of course, it is purely hypothetical). The point is, sometimes you just have to make a decision and run with it. Stick with excellent or good enough, rather than striving for perfect. I have the tendency to spend far too much time writing than I need to, (though it may not look like it) reading over each post about 4 times before submitting it. Emails are usually about the same speed or maybe a little slower. But as far as making decisions in other areas versus origins goes, I've been holding a double standard. I think I tend to make decisions with about a 55% level of informedness (much less and sometimes more in some areas). It makes sense to want extra surety in areas that are so much larger, but at the same time you have to make up your mind eventually.

People sometimes hold unrealistic double standards with historical evidence for (as an example) books. They may only require two copies of a poem book with 30% variation between them to consider the book as genuine. Whereas a religious book with thousands of copies and 1% variation receives loads of scrutiny because it may affect people in a more personal way. It makes sense to question more serious matters to a greater extent, but I contend that you should always be willing to apply the same standard elsewhere. Truth is ultimately truth, irrespective of its contents. If you disregard book B because it disagrees with you but cherish book A that agrees with you yet has 30% variation among copies, you aren't showing a very open mind.

Anyways, I'm quite close to 60%~ on the matter of origins/religion, so I will try to wrap up a few final things and make a decision. A friend of mine wrote some really interesting things to think about, "Here is one word of caution, if you are convinced intellectually than you can be "lost" intellectually. Anyone can have a good case for something but it will always be open for argument and debate in return. No one can debate your personal "experience" for that is your testimony and people can't refute your personal testimony. The disciples preached the gospel not based on knowledge but based on their experience. No one would sacrifice their life or their way of living for knowledge, but if it is based on something that they have experienced and thus believe in, they would gladly give up whatever necessary because of the unshakeable experiences imprinted on the hearts and minds.". What stuck out to me the most is that people are willing to die for something out of experience, but never merely knowledge. I think I'll leave that as it is, but many thanks to my friend's conversation and words worth pondering.

Well, that's about it for this post. I don't think I'll end up doing another post tonight, but I have two (or maybe three, who knows) planned for the weekend. I will leave you with the Monty Hall Problem, courtesy of me watching the movie "21".

Cheers!